The Affair [Out Now]


It has come the time when I can finally write this blog post: The Affair is out there, you can buy it at your favoirte ebook online shop – or at least on Amazon, All Romance ebooks, Smashwords and Kobo. I’m excited, of course. It seems a long time since I started writing it.

I first mentioned it here last September, and even then I’d been working on it for some time. It was the kind of story that took a back seat to other stories that I pushed, but I still knew I wanted to finish it, because the premise of an affair has always fascinated me. I’m not sure why but the predicament of falling in love with someone outside the marriage bond and pursuing that attraction or giving into the sheer force of it… the guilt, the question of whether to end a marriage over it or not… Yes, it is fascinating.

And this is what I wanted to accomplish with The Affair, to dive into that kind of drama. I think I made a decent job of it, but then writers are never the most reliable critics of their own works.

And we’re also not the best editors for them either. And this is where the really hard work begins. With the right story, writing can be like playing, you make believe, you do what you love (the degree on play and love can vary significantly from story to story, and at the end of the day it’s still hard work), but editing… it’s a process that can eat at you.

I personally like it as a learning process, where someone who knows more about syntax and grammar and commas teaches me how to do it better. I’d like to think that I grow more during the editing part of the writing than the writing itself. For example, with The Affair I learned that what I consider new and exciting ways to formulate sentences, are not really that exciting for my readers. They rather hinder the reading. This is something that blows my mind, even though from reading novels I should have already known that. How often have I frowned upon a phrase or a sentence that the writer probably thought was brilliant – and here I am doing the same thing.


It’s a hard lesson to learn and I’m sure I’ll be ignoring it the next time I sit down to write some fiction. It’s also hard to see an editor delete those perfectly wonderful phrases which you think make your writing voice unique and fresh. But most of the time, unfortunately, the editor is right. I can accept that, most of the time, but as I said: hard lesson.

I remember years ago at a fan convention (nothing like comic con, just a small gathering of Xenites at a hostel somewhere in the German hicks), where there were fanfiction readings in the evening. It was the first time I heard someone read anything of mine and it was the most horrific experience in my young writer’s life. I didn’t know until then that every reading is also an interpretation of the text. And, of course, in my opinion, this interpretation was horrible. The reader made all the wrong choices when it came to pauses, the little jokes I build into the story mostly went over the listening crowds’ heads, it was all wrong. But that was mainly my ego. It was apparent that she had read the story many times before to do it justice on that night, she was a little nervous, understandibly, to be reading in public, and she did a decent job of it. Her reading voice just didn’t collaborate with the narrator’s voice in my head.

So, this was a little like an editing experience. And, nowadays, I appreciate the effort behind it more – I hope. Everybody at Ylva Publishing did a fantastic job on making The Affair better than it was to begin with. It’s also longer now and I’m really proud of the end product. I want to thank Astrid Ohletz and Jae, especially, and my editor on this, Alissa McGowan. The cover design by Kaitlyn Connolly is a thing of beauty. There were more people involved and I want to thank everybody.Writing is at times a lonely occupation, but putting out a novel is not.

That said, I hope you’ll all read this novella and tell me how you liked it, the second part being optional, of course. 🙂

Later, lovelies.


The Affair [2]

the-affair-two-edited-no-shadowThis update has been a long time coming, I know. Maybe you need a reminder of what this was about – The Affair [1] at your convenience.

So, what’s going on with this, you might ask. Well, it’s been through some changes. I’ve added some, my editor has deleted some, and now it’s almost at the point where it’s going off to the presses – the virtual ones, because this here story is going to be published as ebook.

That will be next month. You can read the publisher’s advance notice here, before having a look at the official book page here. It’s looking pretty if I say so myself, and not just the cover. Though, I mean, seriously, the cover is great, yes? I love it.

What I also love: what has become of it. It’s gotten a little longer, roughly 22.000 words now. As I said, I added and those were additional scenes, making the story stronger – hopefully. The revisions took me a little longer and that’s why it’s coming out in May instead of April, as originally planned. But I feel good about it.

I hope you’ll feel good about it, too, because, of course, it would be great if you read it. It’s lesbian romance, yes, but you know, my mom reads all my stuff (that’s in German), too, and she’s as straight as they come. A genre shouldn’t exclude anyone. I think the theme of an affair is relatable enough that everyone should be able to read about it, so feel free, even if you’re not gay, or not lesbian, or have never cheated on anyone.

I’ll post about it the minute it comes out, of course, and provide you with links.

I’m so excited about this, and while I love April, May can’t come fast enough for me.

Carpe tempus, lovelies.

The Affair [1]

I already mentioned this story a couple of times. I just finished it – after about five months and 19,750 words. That’s a long time for a story that ranges just between a short story and a short novella. But life got in the way, I did some other writing, but now I finally finished my first, first draft – first, first because I literally just wrote the last sentence and have yet a lot of revisions to do.

Here’s what the story is about:

Robin and Linda are having an affair. We meet them as their relationship grows beyond the physical and enters the emotional. They’re falling in love with each other as they’re both struggling through their respective marriages.

The initial idea was to write a story about an affair, the guilt, the joy of a new love, the confrontations with spouses who have no or only a vague idea of what’s going on behind their backs. That is a lot of drama, a lot of inner monologue and emotional questioning.The pairing is kind of a first for me, since Robin and Linda are older than my usual pairing, already in their mid- to late-forties. But I like– no, I love them.

I loved the idea and I think I did well – but I haven’t read the complete story yet. There’s still a lot to do and I’m at a point where finishing it is all wonderful excitement and I’m looking forward to the editing process. There’s going to be a moment when I’m gong to fall into a deep hole, when I’m gonna miss my characters, feeling that the whole story is shite and my writing isn’t worth the virtual paper it’s written on.

But that’s for later. Right now I feel elated. And I can’t wait to start reading, editing and re-writing.

Carpe tempus, lovelies.