I know what you’re thinking: you don’t seem particularly organized to me. And you’re right. At the moment, I’m free-floating through the social media sites, playing games and dodging responsibility. But as I remembered yesterday, that was different last year. I wrote quite a bit.
So, what was different? I was organized – or as organized as a chaotic person like me could get. I have a dreamwidth journal and I counted words there for every month. That’s like NaNoWriMo, just for yourself. You just count words per month or week or day, or whatever you feel comfortable with. You set yourself a goal for the year. I set mine at 200,000 words, and I wrote 300,000.
Given, most of those were a multi-chapter fanfic, but I was writing almost daily. And it felt good – a good way to keep the demons away, if you know what I mean. So, this year’s full of demons and me cowering behind all kinds of distractions. Fuck that!
It’s time to get my head back in the game (oh, don’t even pretend you’ve never watched High School Musical!). And the first step would be to go back to organizing myself, my writing. ‘Cause, you know, human beings like statistics, they like graphs, they like to have a pie chart showing them possibilities. I’m no different.
I’ve written 450 words yesterday. That is not a lot, but more than I’ve been putting to paper these last few months. Yes, I’ve done revisions, but I haven’t really written. Today, I’m gonna write some more and maybe by Sunday I’ve finished a short story, or maybe I haven’t but I’ll still have started writing again.
And you know, this is part of writing, too. The not-writing, the anxious waiting periods when you feel you’re not really good at this anyway, might as well give it up. But you don’t because you love it, because when you do it, it makes you feel better. You see, I’m motivated today. And I’m writing a little story that dips into some of my passions, and I just followed an inspiration there.
And I’m counting words, and I’m looking at the time to see how long I’ve been at it. And I’m walking and thinking about what to write next. I get up in the morning eager to write. And that’s the most important thing for me right now.